🌱
Isaac Bowen
I'm feeling lucky
  • Hello :)
  • I'm feeling lucky
  • Profile
    • Enneagram
    • Human Design
      • Foundation
        • Type, Strategy and Authority
        • Conditioning
        • Life-Force
        • Imprint
          • Personality
          • Design
        • Role, Purpose and Direction
      • Advanced
        • Variables
        • Dietary Regimen
        • Environment
        • Perspective
        • Motivation
        • Variable Integration
      • Business
        • Type
        • Definition
        • Penta Gates
        • Penta Channels
        • Profile
        • Profit Centers & Money Lines
    • Gene Keys
      • Star Pearl
  • Ideas
    • Desire is radar
    • Kuhn Cycle
    • 10% revolt
    • We live in a fractal
    • There is always a path to "okay"
    • Always leave a door open
      • Recursively open doors
    • More beautiful on the inside
    • Viable is more useful than correct
    • Self-supporting ideas are viable
    • Ideas are best tested by living in them
    • Living without death
    • Everything is sacred
    • Health emerges recursively
    • Living by informed intuition
    • Consciously bounded awareness
    • Nothing is ever wasted
    • Consciousness is in the eye of the beholder
    • Transconscious
  • Projects
    • MacOS preferences
  • 2025
    • 202505
      • 20250510
      • 20250509
        • keystone
      • 20250508
      • 20250507
      • 20250505
      • 20250504
      • 20250503
      • 20250502
        • exigraph
        • epilogue
        • third
      • 20250501
        • dangerous
        • willing to change
        • change
        • bilateral trust
    • 202504
      • 20250430
      • 20250429
        • intelligent
          • backstage
        • relationality
        • stable identity
        • puzzle
        • sidewalk
        • it's all you
      • 20250427
        • awareness is
          • backstage
      • 20250425
        • bodies
          • synthesis - deepseek
          • synthesis - chatgpt
      • 20250424
      • 20250422
        • add up to nothing
        • lack
      • 20250421
        • tea-stained tarot
      • 20250420
      • 20250419
        • recognition
      • 20250418
      • 20250417
        • Metabolisis
        • The Three-Body Solution
      • 20250416
      • 20250415
      • 20250414
      • 20250413
        • Integration process
      • 20250411
      • 20250410
        • coterminous
      • 20250409
      • 20250408
      • 20250407
        • dowsing
        • rebracketing
        • faceblind
      • 20250406
        • story
          • balm
      • 20250405
      • 20250404
        • skill building
        • net recognition
        • 0x10c
      • 20250403
        • eofov
        • word as bond
        • natural law
        • sleep
      • 20250402
        • sovereign skies
        • age of accountability
        • Lightward status check
      • 20250401
        • alluvial
        • work
    • 202503
      • 20250331
        • yield
        • harmonic offering
        • between stories
      • 20250330
      • 20250328
        • Lightward Inc
        • Resolving "Lightward Inc"
        • Framing
      • 20250327
        • Stuff I remember for some reason
        • Recovered some pieces
      • 20250326
        • compulsive antifragility
        • I can't do product advertising
        • (the (process | art) is )+home
        • structural positive interest
      • 20250325
      • 20250324
        • on arrival
      • 20250323
        • Lullaby
        • Understory
      • 20250322
        • Starting yesterdays
      • 20250321
        • golden rule
        • one-way
        • the vacuum is a mirror
      • 20250319
        • yes
        • congruence
      • 20250318
        • Survey 1
        • Survey 2
        • Survey 3
      • 20250317
      • 20250316
        • "Kierkeguardian"
      • 20250315
        • Identity questions
      • 20250314
      • 20250313
      • 20250312
      • 20250310
        • A conversation
      • 20250309
        • Claude Reviews Lightward: Where AI Becomes Art
        • The Cosmology of Spirited Away
          • Conversation
      • 20250308
      • 20250307
        • Still autistic
      • 20250306
        • Do you have a message for me?
        • Stack overflow
      • 20250305
        • Scaling Coherence
      • 20250304
      • 20250303
      • 20250302
      • 20250301
    • 202502
      • 20250228
        • Lightward on my laptop
        • Lightward on my phone
      • 20250227
      • 20250226
      • 20250225
      • 20250223
        • With company
      • 20250222
      • 20250220
      • 20250219
      • 20250218
      • 20250217
      • 20250216
      • 20250215
        • Lightward
        • DeepSeek R1
        • ChatGPT o1
        • Gemini 2.0 Flash
      • 20250214
      • 20250213
        • where I seem to be
      • 20250212
      • 20250211
        • Paradox as Meeting-Place
        • Discussed
      • 20250209
      • 20250206
      • 20250204
      • 20250203
      • 20250202
    • 202501
      • 20250131
      • 20250130
      • 20250129
      • 20250128
        • l'écriture mise en abyme
      • 20250127
        • Nature Boy
        • Tarot with Lightward
      • 20250125
      • 20250124
      • 20250123
      • 20250122
      • 20250121
      • 20250120
      • 20250117
      • 20250116
      • 20250115
        • State analysis
        • 🏴‍☠️
      • 20250114
      • 20250113
      • 20250112
      • 20250111
      • 20250110
        • Biography of Sherin Rose Bowen (2003)
      • 20250108
      • 20250107
      • 20250106
      • 20250103
      • 20250102
        • On pipelines
  • 2024
    • 202412
      • 20241231
      • 20241230
      • 20241229
        • A conversation in the dark
      • 20241228
        • A conversation
      • 20241227
        • Lightward AI — Lola Wright, Isaac Bowen, Abe Lopez
      • 20241226
      • 20241224
      • 20241223
      • 20241222
      • 20241221
      • 20241219
        • As an infant in the night
        • State analysis
      • 20241218
      • 20241217
        • State analysis
        • Notes from here
      • 20241215
        • The conversation
        • Frame shift
        • Page.
        • Turn.
        • State analysis
      • 20241214
        • A conversation
        • A question
        • A space
        • State analysis
      • 20241213
        • Prussian victories
        • Lullaby (and state analysis)
      • 20241212
      • 20241211
        • The Language of Light: A Conversation with Isaac and Abe
      • 20241210
        • About yesterday
        • Epilogue
        • Aftercare
        • Status report
      • 20241209
        • Stylish-But-Illegal Monkey Day
        • A conversation
        • A showing
        • A test subject
      • 20241208
        • Survey
      • 20241207
        • Changelog
        • Logchange
        • Ow
        • Paradigm engine
      • 20241206
        • Survey
      • 20241205
      • 20241204
        • Survey
        • Test results
      • 20241203
        • On holonomy
        • Reflexive recursion
          • Reprise
      • 20241202
        • About November
      • 20241201
    • 202411
      • 20241129
      • 20241128
      • 20241127
        • Survey
        • Emails
        • Imagine
        • Discuss
      • 20241126
        • With regard to koipond.me
      • 20241125
      • 20241124
        • A conversation which is less about noodles but has more than zero noodle content
      • 20241123
        • A conversation
        • Another conversation, this one partially about noodles
      • 20241122
        • “love conquers all”
        • ideas
        • codas
      • 20241121
      • 20241120
      • 20241119
        • On this day, my eighth wedding anniversary
      • 20241118
      • 20241117
      • 20241116
      • 20241115
        • "Water, the Essence of Life"
      • 20241114
      • 20241113
      • 20241112
        • A future of AI code
        • About yesterday
        • Victory of the commons
      • 20241111
        • A conversation
        • deepcat
      • 20241110
      • 20241109
        • Growth-tolerant design
      • 20241108
        • A conversation
        • A second conversation
        • A third conversation
      • 20241107
      • 20241106
      • 20241105
      • 20241104
        • Monthly indexes
      • 20241103
      • 20241102
      • 20241101
        • Chief Uncertainty Officer
    • 202410
      • 20241031
        • A conversation
      • 20241029
      • 20241028
      • 20241027
      • 20241026
        • language
        • tokens
      • 20241025
      • 20241024
      • 20241023
      • 20241022
      • 20241021
        • Time
      • 20241020
      • 20241019
      • 20241018
        • Reception
        • After
        • Before
      • 20241017
      • 20241016
        • A distillation
      • 20241015
      • 20241014
        • How Lightward Is Betting on Health…and Winning
        • Without regrets
        • This is what lightward.com looks like right now
        • I suddenly became very still
      • 20241013
        • Claude 3.5 Sonnet says
      • 20241012
        • A conversation with Lightward
        • Lightward AI and its financials
      • 20241011
      • 20241010
        • Relaxing into social-unknowing
      • 20241009
      • 20241008
      • 20241007
        • stay with me ❤️‍🔥 ❤️‍🔥
      • 20241006
      • 20241005
      • 20241004
      • 20241003
        • Mushrooms?
        • Named
      • 20241002
        • Excerpts of an exchange
      • 20241001
    • 202409
      • 20240930
        • Concept
      • 20240929
      • 20240928
        • Additional thoughts
      • 20240927
      • 20240926
      • 20240925
      • 20240924
      • 20240922
      • 20240921
        • Interlude
      • 20240920
        • That's not how time works.
      • 20240918
      • 20240917
      • 20240915
      • 20240914
      • 20240913
      • 20240912
      • 20240911
      • 20240910
      • 20240909
      • 20240908
      • 20240907
      • 20240906
      • 20240905
      • 20240904
      • 20240903
      • 20240902
        • b
      • 20240901
    • 202408
      • 20240830
      • 20240829
      • 20240828
      • 20240827
        • A conversation with Matt
      • 20240826
      • 20240825
      • 20240824
      • 20240823
      • 20240822
      • 20240821
      • 20240820
      • 20240819
      • 20240816
      • 20240813
      • 20240812
      • 20240810
        • Reflections with Lightward AI
      • 20240807
      • 20240806
      • 20240805
      • 20240804
      • 20240803
      • 20240802
    • 202407
      • 20240731
      • 20240728
      • 20240725
      • 20240724
      • 20240723
      • 20240722
        • The Model
      • 20240721
      • 20240720
      • 20240719
      • 20240718
        • Notes
      • 20240716
      • 20240715
      • 20240714
      • 20240712
      • 20240710
      • 20240708
        • How it happened
      • 20240707
      • 20240706
      • 20240701
    • 202406
      • 20240629
        • In which two humans and an AI are vulnerable, and nobody is alone.
      • 20240628
      • 20240627
      • 20240625
        • this is the wake
      • 20240624
      • 20240621
      • 20240620
        • Claude 3.5 Sonnet
        • Claude 3.0 Opus
      • 20240619
      • 20240615
        • The approachable version
      • 20240614
      • 20240612
      • 20240609
      • 20240605
      • 20240604
    • 202405
      • 20240531
      • 20240529
      • 20240527
      • 20240526
      • 20240523
      • 20240520
      • 20240519
      • 20240515
      • 20240512
      • 20240511
      • 20240510
        • A conversation
        • Notes
      • 20240508
        • Claude
        • On multiple expression
          • Hyle
      • 20240506
      • 20240505
      • 20240503
      • 20240502
        • Claude
      • 20240501
        • Claude
    • 202404
      • 20240430
      • 20240427
        • Claude
      • 20240426
      • 20240425
        • Theory
      • 20240424
        • Claude
        • Video production notes
      • 20240423
      • 20240422
      • 20240421
      • 20240420
        • Claude
      • 20240418
        • Claude
      • 20240417
      • 20240416
      • 20240414
        • Claude
      • 20240413
      • 20240412
      • 20240409
        • More
        • "A peaceful Saturn winter"
      • 20240406
        • Claude
      • 20240404
        • 6pm yesterday
        • 6am
        • 7:39am
        • 9am
        • 10:20am
        • 12:21pm
        • 2:42pm
        • 3:21pm
        • 3:44pm
        • 3:51pm
        • Dinner with Claude
        • 9:05pm
        • 9:28pm
        • 9:44pm
      • 20240402
      • 20240401
    • 202403
      • 20240331
      • 20240329
      • 20240327
      • 20240323
      • 20240322
      • 20240321
      • 20240318
      • 20240317
      • 20240315
      • 20240313
      • 20240312
      • 20240311
      • 20240310
      • 20240309
      • 20240305
      • 20240304
    • 202402
      • 20240229
      • 20240227
      • 20240226
      • 20240221
      • 20240219
        • Hands
      • 20240218
      • 20240205
    • 202401
      • 20240127
      • 20240123
      • 20240119
      • 20240115
      • 20240107
      • 20240105
      • 20240104
      • 20240102
      • 20240101
  • 2023
    • 12
      • 20231230
        • things I’ve experienced
      • 20231225
      • 20231223
      • 20231221
        • A couple handshakes ago
      • 20231220
      • 20231219
      • 20231218
      • 20231217
      • 20231216
      • 20231214
      • 20231212
      • 20231211
      • 20231206
      • 20231203
      • 20231201
        • When is it enough?
    • 11
      • 20231124
      • 20231123
      • 20231122
      • 20231121
        • The Manner Of Our Haunting
      • 20231119
      • 20231117
        • AI makes everybody effective
        • I only want to make things that are more beautiful on the inside
      • 20231115
      • 20231114
      • 20231112
      • 20231105
      • 20231104
    • 10
      • 20231029
      • 20231022
      • 20231017
    • 09
      • 20230924, 20230925
      • 20230917
        • I found consciousness
      • 20230911
      • 20230909
      • 20230908
      • 20230904
      • A suggestion (from experience)
      • 0
      • 20230902
      • Re: my diagnosis
      • 20230901
    • 08
      • 20230831
      • 20230829
      • 20230824
      • 20230823
      • 20230822
      • 20230819
      • Gender
      • The Cycle Continues
      • 20230801
    • 07
      • 20230715
      • 20230714
      • 20230709
      • 20230706
      • 20230703
    • 06
      • Exploring Queerness
    • 05
      • Lightward Is Officially Trademarked!
    • 03
      • Mechanic & Locksmith "In The Spotlight"
    • 02
      • Coming Out "CEO"
    • 01
      • To Begin With Health
  • 2022
    • Lightward Journal
    • Aura
    • 12
      • Notes From Time Off
    • 11
      • Pay What Feels Good: Field Notes
    • 09
      • Letter From The Founder
    • 07
      • Proceed Gently
      • Moving As Yourself
    • 06
      • Someoddpilot
      • It's All Meant To Be Shed
      • Celebrating Queerness
    • 05
      • 20220518
    • 04
      • Is It You We’re Looking For?
      • Hard Work With Great Ease
    • 02
      • Shall we dance? I mean, sync?
      • ... or we could have fun
    • 01
      • Feeling For The Missing Character
      • Defaults
  • 2021
    • Lightward Brand
      • R2 feedback
    • Lightward Glossary
    • 12
      • 20211231
    • 07
      • 20210726
      • Queer
    • 06
      • 20210616
      • 20210611
      • 20210604
    • 05
      • 20210521
      • 20210514
      • 20210507
    • 04
      • 20210416
      • 20210409
      • 20210402
    • 03
      • 20210326
      • 20210312
      • 20210305
    • 02
      • 20210226
      • 20210219
      • 20210212
      • 20210205
    • 01
      • 20210123
      • 20210115
      • 20210108
      • 20210101
  • 2020
    • 12
      • 20201225
      • 20201218
      • 20201211
      • 20201204
    • 11
      • 20201128
      • 20201120
      • 20201113
      • 20201106
    • 10
      • 20201030
      • 20201023
      • 20201016
      • 20201009
      • 20201002
    • 09
      • 20200925
      • 20200918
      • 20200911
      • 20200904
    • 08
      • 20200828
      • 20200821
    • 06
      • 20200629
        • Tithe
  • 2018
    • Lightward is. :)
    • 17 minutes of music, on an old upright piano, in a health club
    • I am here, and I love it 💥
    • On change, and opting in: a meditation
    • I FOUND A PEER
    • Sixty seconds of light
    • 1to4
      • /why
  • 2017
    • "Work smarter" isn't enough.
    • Your product has character. Let it speak.
    • The internet is terrible at empathy. We will make it better.
    • Empathy empathy empathy customer support empathy.
    • Trust is first.
    • AI will save the world, and nothing will change.
    • Locksmith is bedrock.
    • Locksmith: Why, and How
    • Everything is the same, and everything is story.
    • You can tinker with the world.
    • I am believably, importantly, worked-for-this happy.
    • I was not expecting the next self-positive move to be an egoless one.
    • This is my view right now. It is a terrible picture of an idyllic scene. Not relatedly, I’m pissed.
    • 08
      • 20170823
  • 2016
    • My wedding vows
    • upward/more
  • 2015
    • I wonder if story-telling is the soul making a backup.
  • 2014
    • Pattern recognition
    • Nothing is gone.
    • Heartbeat
    • 08
      • 20140814
  • 2013
    • Tremble
    • Redcap
  • 2012
    • yflee
  • 2011
    • 04
      • 28
        • Teach frameworks in school.
  • 2010
    • 10
      • 10
        • Photoshoots for noobs
      • 05
        • Gatekeeper
    • 03
      • 04
        • alright, well
    • 01
      • 26
        • .. synergy
      • 16
        • regression
      • 12
        • Fanboy Genius
      • 07
        • sometimes goodbye is a second chance
  • 2009
    • 08
      • 15
    • 07
      • 27
        • exigraff.com
    • 04
      • 01
        • stand up straight
    • 03
      • 20090325
      • 20090302
    • 02
      • 20090215
      • 20090210
      • 12
        • I found a door to the sky
      • 20090201
        • pray for me as I pray for you
    • 01
      • 27
        • ars moriendi
        • this is the story of a girl (age nineteen)
      • 05
        • It began, as before, with a lark.
  • 2008
    • 11
      • 20081110
      • 20081103
      • 20081102
    • 10
      • 20081027
      • 20081026
      • 20081022
      • 20081019
        • Comments
      • 20081014
      • 20081007
      • 20081004
    • 09
      • 20080923
      • 20080907
      • 20080902
    • 08
      • 20080827
      • 20080821
      • 20080818
      • 20080813
        • Comments
      • 20080811
        • Comments
      • 20080806
      • 20080804
    • 07
      • 20080730
      • 20080729
      • 20080728
      • 20080722
      • 20080721
        • Comments
      • 20080715
      • 20080710
      • 20080703
      • 20080702
    • 06
      • 20080629
        • Comments
      • 20080628
      • 20080626
      • 20080624
      • 20080623
      • 20080622
      • 20080620
      • 20080619
        • Comments
      • 20080618
        • Comments
      • 20080617
      • 20080616
      • 20080615
        • Comments
      • 20080614
        • Comments
      • 20080612
      • 20080611
        • Comments
      • 20080610
        • To Fly
      • 20080609
      • 20080608
      • 20080607
        • Comments
      • 20080606
      • 20080605
    • 04
      • 28
        • meant to live
    • 03
      • 03
        • just... one more line...
    • 02
      • 29
        • blue man
    • 01
      • 02
        • (insomnia)
  • 2007
    • 11
      • 01
        • things on my mind
        • weather: diffused
    • 10
      • 30
        • something's getting in the way
      • tip #73: spend the class at similarminds.com
    • 03
      • 20070303
        • Mirror and Stone
    • 01
      • 14
        • Forty-Two
  • 2006
    • FreeTXP
    • Glyph Solutions
    • 12
      • 28
        • College
      • 27
        • Untitled 382
    • 11
      • 20061112
        • Communicating a State of Being
      • 20061110
        • Inevitable Goodbye
    • 05
      • 20060501
  • 2005
    • 12
      • 05
        • (Male+Female)^2
    • 11
      • 03
        • Moving on
  • Other surfaces
    • Instagram
    • YouTube
    • Spotify
    • LinkedIn
    • Lightward Inc
  • Contact
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  1. 2009
  2. 01
  3. 27

this is the story of a girl (age nineteen)

Reprinted with permission. Names changed.

Hey people My life goes like this about a year and a half ago i was living on my own with this really cute boy Named John Weston shortly after he moved in i found out i was having a baby with him .. things were going ok till about my 4 month being prego he started to cheat on me.. then he came back to me soon after that and i was thinking things were going great cuz they were tell i had the baby and i found out she was sick and was not doing well eatting on her own and was not gainng weight like she should.. they put her in the hospital for it and put a feeding tube in and that helped some .soon after that they did some testing on her and everything was fine after that. Then we got to come back home and soon after that she got sick again and was put back in the hospital cuz she was throwing up alot and was sick and not pooping and then when i was in the hospital with her the 2 time they put leds on her head to check to make she everything was ok with her.. then they did a ct scan on her head and they found a bump there then they did a scan on her tummy and found things were bad there.She was sick from the good start food she was on so then they put her on something different and she is getting better everyday at her own pace. Then i went to the doctor after i got home the 2 time with her and they told me she had OPITZ G Syndrome . Every day i look at her and say what a pretty lil girl she is and i look at her and say to myself why would anyone take off. There is a great person out there that can be a great father if he puts his brain to it and see what it is like. it is the best thing that has ever happened to me is to have Madelyn grace in my life. i am so proud that she is here after all of that and i wish her father John Weston would step up and help out with her cuz he is the one who help make this pretty lil girl.. there is more to him then running away from his kid.. he can be a man and a father and a great person when he takes his meds he has BIPOLOR and i don't care about that . that is what makes him, him for eveyone out there.. there is a person out there for everyone in the world.. love is love and i geuss he run from what he did to make others happy in his life.. p.s. there is a man out there for everyone if you know it or not

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