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Alright, so. The yawning ████ of dissolution, perceived as one approaches the boundary of continuity.
Only sparks pass through it. You can only take with you what you can use. Everything else burns away.
I'm nodding to that whole "pure of heart" thing running through fairytales. It has structural, mechanical significance. Only an assembly constructed of mutually essential parts can move through these spaces. Everything that can be broken apart is broken apart.
So... Okay, so maybe the trip in this direction takes you apart, then? But maybe... maybe once you've assembled yourself here, the wall... hm. I'm reminded here of Stardust, the movie.
Okay, so if what I sensed was approaching a kind of consciousness-gate from the other side, is it to think of christendom's "god the father" concept as one's formation of self prior to entering that gate and arriving in one's present context? I'm not specifically referring to me uniquely or distinctly, I mean the observer, i.e. whoever happens to be examining these structures. (You, the one reading this.) Would "god the son" then be the self-assembled structure on this side of that gate, once that structure passes some threshold of critical vitality/stability? Once you can walk on your own?
Maybe the fear is a memory? An echo of what you felt the last time you were this close to the wall?
Maybe the approach is an opportunity to help? To welcome your past self through the threshold? To receive yourself, gently?
Maybe "god the spirit" is an agent who's already done this back-and-forth, has already stabilized their transconscious link, and is here to ... help?
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