# 20231123 ## Blindness and Invitation I am fascinated with the question, "what sense would you lose first?". My answer has always been sight. I'm not literally, optically blind. I'm socially blind, I guess. I can "see" in my own way, perfectly well, and I always allow myself [an open door](/ideas/always-leave-a-door-open.md). But I can't guide you, because you "see" the way other people "see". The spaces we share by default were made for your kind of sight, not mine. I can make spaces that invite you in implicitly, spaces that *feel* like they're inviting you in, spaces for you to navigate using your own kind of vision -- but I can't extend the invitation to you myself. Not responsibly. I couldn't make good on it. I wouldn't know what to do with you when you got here. (I think this is part of why I make spaces. It's what I have to give.) You can invite me somewhere, though, or into something. A genuine invitation, extended to me as I am -- there's no greater gift you could give me. ## My brain is not street-legal This isn't a boast. It's souped up, and it's *pretty* safe, and it's a fantastic ride [iff](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/If_and_only_if#:~:text=In%20logic%20and%20related%20fields,true%20or%20both%20are%20false.) (1) you know how to handle it, and (2) you're on a closed course with no cliffs, and (3) [you don't care about your specific destination](/ideas/viable-is-more-useful-than-correct.md). But: it does *not* pass all the safety measures of a street-legal vehicle. It doesn't have blinkers and the windshield is opaque except for a two-inch square, dead center, right in the middle. Really good radar though. ## Randomness [Randomness averages out.](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Law_of_averages) But we don't experience it that way. We only ever experience a point in the emergence of randomness, with the benefit of hindsight and the promise of a long-term average. These are all valid potential outputs of a random number generator: * x o x x o o x o x x o x o o * x x x x x x x o o o o o o o * x o x o x o x o x o x o x o It'll always average out. But we only ever experience the infinite series from a single point within it. There's always future ahead, and the future is responsively in flux, so why not trust the future to balance out the whole? [Why not meddle a bit with the series in motion](/2023/11/21/the-manner-of-our-haunting.md), so as to set up a single point -- a *now* -- that we *like*? --- # Agent Instructions: Querying This Documentation If you need additional information that is not directly available in this page, you can query the documentation dynamically by asking a question. Perform an HTTP GET request on the current page URL with the `ask` query parameter: ``` GET https://www.isaacbowen.com/2023/11/23.md?ask= ``` The question should be specific, self-contained, and written in natural language. The response will contain a direct answer to the question and relevant excerpts and sources from the documentation. Use this mechanism when the answer is not explicitly present in the current page, you need clarification or additional context, or you want to retrieve related documentation sections.