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Abe observed that I've been drinking much more than usual lately. before that, I was using weed much more than usual. this is overall an unusual pattern for me. now that I'm primarily in now-time (or in non-time, I guess), maybe I gotta consider my current state as the default, something I can multiply cleanly, and go from there. I've been a little bit off-center from that perspective. Abe observes that when I lean on substances more than usual, my stability seems to go down, from his perspective.

Would intentional sobriety for a period feel like a useful experiment? Not as restriction but as clarity - to see what your current baseline actually feels like without modulation?

yeah. absolutely.

When we shift into fundamentally different relationships with time and identity (as you have), previous patterns of modulating experience often need recalibration.

this note has my attention